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Friday, June 26, 2009 6/26/2009 10:25:00 PM
hellos.
if you seen this, good. you are alive. school's starting, life is changing, it always does. change is the only constant. let's see where next shall brings me, i really want to be at a new place, am i ready am i there alrd. i dont care, if im making sense, just wanna type. i want to do so much things, things i have in my head, things that are gonna come my way. i just felt i lost the june hols. i totally ruined it. i didnt have it, i just let it pass me by. i rotted, i died. now what. just so annoyed with myself. could have done so much with those time, and God has been great awesome. Praise Him that i managed to finished all my hols work, He's awesome. i wanna marrry Him. i need a man. or a best friend. i need someone who is on the same level or one level higher than me . its just so awesome living my life but sometimes you just wanna sigh together rather than alone. Lord, pls send him here now. i dont wanna to wait anymore. or can i have a pet. a pet that doesnt need my care but to hear me talk. im gonna add some colour into my words. arghghhhhh. i love doing what i do,, why does it gets so hard to walk. maybe because i walk alone. i need a holiday. i should hangout with myself. come on, Jo . lets go hang out and scream like i havent scream in a long while and do things that i can only do alone.
aint no sunshine,
when's she's gone.
it's not warm when's she's gone.
aint no sunshine
when she's gone,
love, Jo.
when's she's gone.
it's not warm when's she's gone.
aint no sunshine
when she's gone,
love, Jo.
i need to work + rest too la.
Wednesday, June 24, 2009 6/24/2009 10:16:00 PM
hellos. awesome people.
today i declared, i havent yet to finished my homework, yes and amen to that. that's a mountain i cant move but i serve a God who moves mountain, amen! hahas. just randomly wanna add up the atmosphere. today prayer was good, i dont know if anyone understood what i shared. i'm mega feeling better. and. i need to stay home tmr and stay away from my bed so i wont FALL ASLEEP. gotta work smart. and i know YOU LOVE ME (:
love much still, Jo
today i declared, i havent yet to finished my homework, yes and amen to that. that's a mountain i cant move but i serve a God who moves mountain, amen! hahas. just randomly wanna add up the atmosphere. today prayer was good, i dont know if anyone understood what i shared. i'm mega feeling better. and. i need to stay home tmr and stay away from my bed so i wont FALL ASLEEP. gotta work smart. and i know YOU LOVE ME (:
love much still, Jo
sometimes you just have to sit and think to really know it all.
Monday, June 22, 2009 6/22/2009 09:26:00 PM
hellos(:
today was really mind-breaking, cause i'm sick, really sick, cough and slight fever. i know He will strengthen me, when i'm weak, He is strong, today was tough, being all sick and weak but it was good, cause i managed to take a break from everything and just think, it was good, and had dinner with some awesome people, and shaunster shared good, i didnt had THAT confidence to tell him my purpose in life, i think fear is what stops potential people from unleashing it, and lazyness is really what that cause your life to be meaningless, when you feel you dont want to do something , really not because of tiredness, it's because you lost that purpose, your life becomes meaningless, i have been in spiritual field, and i didnt know, gotta start working SMART. dust off my bible. dig for my hwk and my phone to encourage my friends. people who are with me(: today was great but i know there will be something greater and better in stored for me(: amen.
today was really mind-breaking, cause i'm sick, really sick, cough and slight fever. i know He will strengthen me, when i'm weak, He is strong, today was tough, being all sick and weak but it was good, cause i managed to take a break from everything and just think, it was good, and had dinner with some awesome people, and shaunster shared good, i didnt had THAT confidence to tell him my purpose in life, i think fear is what stops potential people from unleashing it, and lazyness is really what that cause your life to be meaningless, when you feel you dont want to do something , really not because of tiredness, it's because you lost that purpose, your life becomes meaningless, i have been in spiritual field, and i didnt know, gotta start working SMART. dust off my bible. dig for my hwk and my phone to encourage my friends. people who are with me(: today was great but i know there will be something greater and better in stored for me(: amen.
i'm still hanging, still excited. but needs alittle much more FIRE.
Sunday, June 21, 2009 6/21/2009 10:22:00 PM
hellos readers.
im speechlesss. i dont quite know why,. somehow i want to speak, somehow theres something holding me back. mans. i'm excited, even with a pimple on my face. hahas. im kinda feeling all lazy and everything, not like last year where i can chiong my hwk, but now it's like HOD OUTING! hees. awesomefun. but im gonna do some work, hopefully before i leave home, yes i can, (: arrrghhh, i have to freaking go school tmr, why . i havent complete my hwk, why. arrrghhh. GAMESDAY was fun, evven though it was messy, hahas, PARENTS DAY was awesome, i had to freaking sit at the same table as shaun, hahas kidding(: you're awesome. then , it's off to tmr, boy, i hate school at this point of time, and i really wanna skip it, mans. arghhhhhh,..
love much stilll, Jo
im speechlesss. i dont quite know why,. somehow i want to speak, somehow theres something holding me back. mans. i'm excited, even with a pimple on my face. hahas. im kinda feeling all lazy and everything, not like last year where i can chiong my hwk, but now it's like HOD OUTING! hees. awesomefun. but im gonna do some work, hopefully before i leave home, yes i can, (: arrrghhh, i have to freaking go school tmr, why . i havent complete my hwk, why. arrrghhh. GAMESDAY was fun, evven though it was messy, hahas, PARENTS DAY was awesome, i had to freaking sit at the same table as shaun, hahas kidding(: you're awesome. then , it's off to tmr, boy, i hate school at this point of time, and i really wanna skip it, mans. arghhhhhh,..
love much stilll, Jo
you're the reason why i can stand on mountains
Thursday, June 18, 2009 6/18/2009 11:43:00 PM
HELLO readers.
today was awesome, ok. everyday is awesome. this whole week has been unexpected, it wasnt planned, hahas. i was SUPPOSEDLY to stay home and do homework but then theres singing prac, which kinda took almost half the week and a meeting tmr (: but it's cool, praise God my mum aint complaining, im trying to be home for dinner, so at least she sees me, hees. i'm so hoping for extension of 2weeks of holidays. mans, havent even completed half of my homework, i cant go back to school!! hees. today was great. i love the chalet part where i go meet all my classmates and exclassmates, and i love the people, some are like the awesome people,. hahas. shamus, he's like the little boy , he very sweet, bought me lolipop. hahas, but his life is not that nice, so he comes to me and talk about girls, (: he's awesome, then i have the psp freaks, syfiq is like some skinny mud, hahas. he taught me how to play soccer on psp, which i suck in, and kept screaming the whole time, hahas, fun. im so tired, gotta win some eye bags back, so im gonna tune in (:
today was awesome, ok. everyday is awesome. this whole week has been unexpected, it wasnt planned, hahas. i was SUPPOSEDLY to stay home and do homework but then theres singing prac, which kinda took almost half the week and a meeting tmr (: but it's cool, praise God my mum aint complaining, im trying to be home for dinner, so at least she sees me, hees. i'm so hoping for extension of 2weeks of holidays. mans, havent even completed half of my homework, i cant go back to school!! hees. today was great. i love the chalet part where i go meet all my classmates and exclassmates, and i love the people, some are like the awesome people,. hahas. shamus, he's like the little boy , he very sweet, bought me lolipop. hahas, but his life is not that nice, so he comes to me and talk about girls, (: he's awesome, then i have the psp freaks, syfiq is like some skinny mud, hahas. he taught me how to play soccer on psp, which i suck in, and kept screaming the whole time, hahas, fun. im so tired, gotta win some eye bags back, so im gonna tune in (:
annoyed but yet gotta keep firm,
Tuesday, June 16, 2009 6/16/2009 12:08:00 PM
hey.
feeling so annoyed, just cleaned my room which took me like more or less 45mins, mans, so tired, arrrrghhhh, thought of blogging after so long, hahas, as much as i wanna talk, i got work to do, but life or rather me has changed alot ever since church camp, i'm so ready to go, go after God, mans. liike i'm so ready for ascension but my body is not, cause i'm not physically ready, hahs, dillemma mans, dilemma, so confused, i been thinking so much i hardly sleep, mans, i dont want eyebags, hahas. who wants, man, feeling so bimbo. oh no, complaining too much. okok, let's get everything right, let me share with YOU. yes YOU. stop it. (: my vision, the vision i got during church camp. i saw a picture of a red car, looks like a ferrari, hahas, then it was positioned on a long road, the road had like curves, up and down, and it was straight, and the weather was amazingly nice, and as i stayed and observe the picture, the voice said, Gop is like that red ferrari., everyone is a part of that car, and only 20-30 parts of the car caught the fire the vision and wants to move, wants to go and run after it, but the other parts didnt , and thus, the whole car cant move, cant move into greater things and what God has planned for it, if our attitude is right and we really want to move, lets spread the fire, lets catch the vision and run together, we have a long road to go, but we know that we are on the right track because the weather is good, everything is going smooth, i believe that theres not much time to waste, lets get fired up and run! (: so excited. hahsas,
bye me loves!
feeling so annoyed, just cleaned my room which took me like more or less 45mins, mans, so tired, arrrrghhhh, thought of blogging after so long, hahas, as much as i wanna talk, i got work to do, but life or rather me has changed alot ever since church camp, i'm so ready to go, go after God, mans. liike i'm so ready for ascension but my body is not, cause i'm not physically ready, hahs, dillemma mans, dilemma, so confused, i been thinking so much i hardly sleep, mans, i dont want eyebags, hahas. who wants, man, feeling so bimbo. oh no, complaining too much. okok, let's get everything right, let me share with YOU. yes YOU. stop it. (: my vision, the vision i got during church camp. i saw a picture of a red car, looks like a ferrari, hahas, then it was positioned on a long road, the road had like curves, up and down, and it was straight, and the weather was amazingly nice, and as i stayed and observe the picture, the voice said, Gop is like that red ferrari., everyone is a part of that car, and only 20-30 parts of the car caught the fire the vision and wants to move, wants to go and run after it, but the other parts didnt , and thus, the whole car cant move, cant move into greater things and what God has planned for it, if our attitude is right and we really want to move, lets spread the fire, lets catch the vision and run together, we have a long road to go, but we know that we are on the right track because the weather is good, everything is going smooth, i believe that theres not much time to waste, lets get fired up and run! (: so excited. hahsas,
bye me loves!
PASTORJOHNATHAN
Saturday, June 13, 2009 6/13/2009 11:12:00 PM
hellos readers.
awesome service ttoday, i think theres not much to talk because you can see it, it's all happening, so obvious, hahas, HOD. we have outing okays! for once we go antichurch, we dont talk about church and services, and dont complain about our ministry, we go have fun, hahas, i plan, so give me ideas(: we go on the wednesday, 24thjune, okays? then we can we can watch movie or shop, hahas, okays,. i think somehow i disappointed people, and i believe God too but yet He still loved me, Jesus too, thanks Gaius, hahas, arrgrghhh.. i'm feelin grumpy and jumpy, i wanna jump around the place like noone would comment or judge me, i am so like that la, arrrgghhhh,maybe if i sleep it will be gone, okays, i'm gonna try that, GOODNIGHTS!!
who will go?
me: here i am , choose me choose me, i will go!!
awesome service ttoday, i think theres not much to talk because you can see it, it's all happening, so obvious, hahas, HOD. we have outing okays! for once we go antichurch, we dont talk about church and services, and dont complain about our ministry, we go have fun, hahas, i plan, so give me ideas(: we go on the wednesday, 24thjune, okays? then we can we can watch movie or shop, hahas, okays,. i think somehow i disappointed people, and i believe God too but yet He still loved me, Jesus too, thanks Gaius, hahas, arrgrghhh.. i'm feelin grumpy and jumpy, i wanna jump around the place like noone would comment or judge me, i am so like that la, arrrgghhhh,maybe if i sleep it will be gone, okays, i'm gonna try that, GOODNIGHTS!!
who will go?
me: here i am , choose me choose me, i will go!!
WOW. you can say it again.
Friday, June 12, 2009 6/12/2009 04:17:00 PM
hello readers!
back from awana genting and fired up. this church camp was amazing, God was there, i mean it was like soaking in His presence and i never want to leave but gotta follow where He goes because God doesnt stagnate. He moves on and so must we. hahas., it was indeed one of the most spiritually and physically church camp. nothing like the others i been to. day 1 and 2 morning service was Ps.yang and yes, he is awesome, amazing speaker and had a word for me, which was good, hahas. then day 2 night service and day 3 morning service was Ps.michael, he is funny, love him, hahas, his wife was awesome too., the services was good, and cell was a new experience mans, i believe something is stirring up. for me, compared to last year, church camp was so spiritually and emotionally tired and intense,. my room was the most intense in a sense, in between the hours i had to go away and take a break, all the way, mans. hahas, my room was with angel and fion, yeah, they are awesome people but it can get real messy at times, not so good, but it's all settled and still working on it, gotta learn how to have patience and love, mans, tough, i'm like loving what i'm doing but so not sure if this is what God wants me to do and if it's the right thing anot. so gonna give it my best and yeah, i know i'm not ready yet.
Lord, i know i know you have something installed for me
and i'm gonna prepare myself while you prepare me too
for what's to come, iloveyou, Amen!
i'm BACK with the FIRE BURNING in me(:
Thursday, June 11, 2009 6/11/2009 11:01:00 PM
hellos readers.
mans, am i tired, but i'm gonna cut things short and blog tmr, but be expected for the bomb to land on you. church camp was so much better than sentosa(:
mans, am i tired, but i'm gonna cut things short and blog tmr, but be expected for the bomb to land on you. church camp was so much better than sentosa(:
hmm, so many yet so little.
Wednesday, June 3, 2009 6/03/2009 09:05:00 PM
hellos readers!
i'm feeling all excited , haha, yeah right. i just came back from cell stayover, which was a new mega experience, when i was immature, i would get high and hyper and don't care about the people around me , it's just me and me and still me, but ytd was kinda awesome, i could see the difference la, i tried to be less thinking of only me, and start thinking about repsonsiblilty and people la, kinda cool. hhaas. mans, the bible study/worship time was great, i thought we could go further, hahas, like the presence. then we had movies and there was me and gracek studying, we slept in the santuary, mega cold ok. hahas. but fun. i'm still tired though, my day was like booom boom. i came home, get ready for school, bathe and left home, came home, watch tv and fall asleep, so i missed prayer, but i intended to, gotta BALANCE my time at home and church. tmr gonna be exciting , i'm doing total fast, and i have school. mans, and mike connell on sat. ahhh!!! and saturday our cell gonna wear something special, hahas, i think kristie tell people le lor. so excited !!! gonna get some rest. (:
Lord, take control.
pls help me when i'm fasting!!
i'm feeling all excited , haha, yeah right. i just came back from cell stayover, which was a new mega experience, when i was immature, i would get high and hyper and don't care about the people around me , it's just me and me and still me, but ytd was kinda awesome, i could see the difference la, i tried to be less thinking of only me, and start thinking about repsonsiblilty and people la, kinda cool. hhaas. mans, the bible study/worship time was great, i thought we could go further, hahas, like the presence. then we had movies and there was me and gracek studying, we slept in the santuary, mega cold ok. hahas. but fun. i'm still tired though, my day was like booom boom. i came home, get ready for school, bathe and left home, came home, watch tv and fall asleep, so i missed prayer, but i intended to, gotta BALANCE my time at home and church. tmr gonna be exciting , i'm doing total fast, and i have school. mans, and mike connell on sat. ahhh!!! and saturday our cell gonna wear something special, hahas, i think kristie tell people le lor. so excited !!! gonna get some rest. (:
Lord, take control.
pls help me when i'm fasting!!
i wanna PREACH!
Monday, June 1, 2009 6/01/2009 09:30:00 PM
hellos readers.
i want to speak, preach, whatever you call that. i gotta make some noise, i am made to stand in the gap of the worship team in heaven, so we gotta make some noise. i am so amazed by Joel Osteen's sermon, living without crutches. and i wanna share it mans! it really impacted me alot. he shared about the story in Judges 7, where Gideon is about to take his men to fight a battle, he had about 30k men and God said it was too much and asked those who were afraid to fight, to leave and made some final changes, and 300men were left to fight the battle against 10k and they fought. what do we see here, it's not about the number of men we have to fight the battle,it's about the RIGHT ones, are you the right one ? are you afraid? maybe you should start asking this qn. i'm asking myself, whether i was ready to even give my life, i wouldnt be afraid to admit that i fear of death, fear what would happen to my family and friends, i guess i got work to do. hahas. today my day was abit unfulfilling, except i was home with mum, her birthday, hahs. gonna take a deep breath and face the music.
Lord. i love you for the love you showered upon me
and i thank you for forgiving me still and i have faith in you
that whatever is going that is negative, you have control.
i want to speak, preach, whatever you call that. i gotta make some noise, i am made to stand in the gap of the worship team in heaven, so we gotta make some noise. i am so amazed by Joel Osteen's sermon, living without crutches. and i wanna share it mans! it really impacted me alot. he shared about the story in Judges 7, where Gideon is about to take his men to fight a battle, he had about 30k men and God said it was too much and asked those who were afraid to fight, to leave and made some final changes, and 300men were left to fight the battle against 10k and they fought. what do we see here, it's not about the number of men we have to fight the battle,it's about the RIGHT ones, are you the right one ? are you afraid? maybe you should start asking this qn. i'm asking myself, whether i was ready to even give my life, i wouldnt be afraid to admit that i fear of death, fear what would happen to my family and friends, i guess i got work to do. hahas. today my day was abit unfulfilling, except i was home with mum, her birthday, hahs. gonna take a deep breath and face the music.
Lord. i love you for the love you showered upon me
and i thank you for forgiving me still and i have faith in you
that whatever is going that is negative, you have control.
